Well, much like getting acceptance or rejection letters from colleges, the smaller the envelope, the smaller the chance of exceptance. Thus was the case with the Jerome Textile Grant I had applied for. I am not all that upset about not being picked because I think I have a lot of growing to do as an artist before I can really compete with other artists in the fiber arts field. I didn’t really know what I was getting myself into, and I think I have acknowledged that on more than one occasion. I have seen through books that I have so much to learn. I have so much room to grow and develop my skills that I can always return to applying for the grant next year.
Was I pinning all of my hopes on this grant? Not really. I think I figured out a few weeks ago that I really couldn’t put myself in contention because of my limited experience. So many of the other people who had applied in previous years had backgrounds in art, had been educated in art beyond my short high school art classes. Many of them had shown their art at art shows, been involved in the art community, and had taken steps to improve their craft through participating in various artsy activities.
It is a bummer that I cannot proceed with a grant to help me in exploring new possibilities, but that was the point of my KICKSTARTER project. I have taken the initiative to create my own artwork, and show it here and to family members. Hopefully I will soon find myself putting on an art show somewhere soon. I need to get up the courage, and the time to put together pieces that I am willing and able to show.